Day 64

So I decided to share a picture of my man. This is him over there. He sent it to me the other day. He is such a looker in my book. He called today. It was so nice to hear his voice even if most of it was what huh Jenn you there? Got to love them phone lines full of static. So yeah he says he is doing pretty good and so am I as well. The kids are in school and I need to make lunch for the twins and go to an appointment for then wellness center. I am going to start working out to lose some pounds and look good for him when he comes home. Well better get to steppin.

Day 63

Yeah so it was a nice weekend. I got to talk to the hubby 2 days in a row. I think he is stressing a bit but it is all new to him. He has lots of things going on. I am sooo Proud of him. He is good at his job.
On another note. I am going to start the search for our dream home!!! I can not wait. I am not so sure I am keen to moving and doing it all on my own but again that is part of life.
The kids are doing well. I am starting to be able to cope with them. I am not letting them get to me as bad. I am finding ways to get some space and do my own thing. I think as my house gets organized the better it is also making me feel.
Did I say I miss my husband? Yeah I can not believe we are working on Month number 3 already. I am looking already for R&R only about 6 months to go I hope. It will be a nice break and then only about 3 months to go after that. That is a cake walk. So I will update more later going to get to bed after a nice warm bath. AHHHH!!

Day 59

Hello well I guess I am one day away from 2 months already WOW can you believe it. It is going pretty fast. I have not heard from him today. I suppose that is ok. I tell ya I am hoping that the next 2 months go just as quick for me. I am working on changing my blog. I want a new name. I guess I am not wanting to whine I just want to share this deployment with others. I know there are many different things that happen during the deployment like some people Jenna. She is getting ready for hubby to come home. I am sooo happy for her it has been a long long year.
Some of us like Amy and I have just started. So far we have not had any huge problems. This is a good thing.
We have lost one soldier from our Unit. That is a really sad deal. I pray for his family and plan on going to his memorial on the 2nd of next month. I pray we do not have to lose anyone else and we can make it threw this deployment with as few injuries as possible. Well I have things I need to get done. I just had to point out that I have 2 months down only 10 to go.

Day 55 still

OK I am not so sure I wanted to make sure I gave a bit of a feed back to my comment left for me. It is not easy to have to be the strong one all the time. Heidi you need to make sure you know you are not alone. It is really hard. You have a very good reason to be proud of him but be proud of yourself as well. I took a long time to figure out that I was not the only one going threw the deployment thing. It is tough and I have managed to make it threw this is my 4th all since 2000. So to me it is part of life now. It is great to have the babysitting. I pray for someone to call me up and say hey I will come get the kids why don't you enjoy a hot bath and shave your legs in which rarely happens while he is gone. LOL I will have to shave my legs soon lol. You know I think I want to share a poem tonight with you and anyone that is feeling like it is so hard to get by. There are so many out there. Maybe I could start making sure everyone saw my favorites. So this time I will include 2.

SILENT RANK

Author Unknown

I wear no uniforms, no blues or army greens.

But I am in the military in the ranks rarely seen.

I have no rank upon my shoulders.

Salutes I do not give.

But the military world is the place where I live.

I'm not in the chain of command, orders I do not get.

But my husband is the one who does, this I cannot forget.

I'm not the one who fires the weapon, who puts my life on the line.

But my job is just as tough.

I'm the one that's left behind.

My husband is a patriot, a brave and pride-filled man.

And the call to serve his country not all can understand.

Behind the lines I see the things needed to keep this country free.

My husband makes the sacrifice, but so do our kids and me.

I love the man I married.

Soldiering is his life.

But I stand among the silent ranks known as

the Military Wife.

THE MILITARY WIFE

The good Lord was creating a model for military wives and was into His sixth day of overtime when an angel appeared. She said, 'Lord, you seem to be having a lot of trouble with this one. What's the matter with the standard model?'
The Lord replied, 'Have you seen the specs on this order? She has to be completely independent, possess the qualities of both father and mother, be a perfect hostess to four or forty with an hour's notice, run on black coffee, handle every emergency imaginable without a manual, be able to carry on cheerfully, even if she's pregnant and has the flu, and she must be willing to move 10 times in 17 years. And oh, yes, she must have six pairs of hands."
The angel shook her head. "Six pairs of hands? No way."
The Lord continued, 'Don't worry, we will make other military wives to help her. And we will give her an unusually strong heart so it can swell with pride in her husband's achievements, sustain the pain of separations, beat soundly when it's over-worked and tired, and be large enough to say, 'I understand,' when she doesn't, and say 'I love you,' regardless."
The angel circled the model of the military wife, looked at it closely and sighed, 'It looks fine, but it's too soft."
'She might look soft,' replied the Lord, 'but she has the strength of a lion. You would not believe what she can endure.'
Finally, the angel bent over and ran her finger across the cheek of the Lord's creation. 'There's a leak," she announced. 'Something is wrong with the construction. I am not surprised that it has cracked. You are trying to put too much into this model."
The Lord appeared offended at the angel's lack of confidence. "What you see is not a leak,' he said. "It's a tear.'
"A tear? What is it there for?' asked the angel.
The Lord replied, 'It's for joy, sadness, pain, disappointment, loneliness, pride, and a dedication to all the values that she and her husband hold dear."
'You are a genius!' exclaimed the angel.
The Lord looked puzzled and replied, 'I didn't put it there."
Author Unknown

Day 55

Ok only 310 days to go. LOL That sure is a big number. So I have been slacking on my blog duties. Lets see where do I begin. I have been cleaning like a fool. Cleaned out the kids room got rid of toys they never play with and clothes that do not fit anymore or are worn out. So now I am working on my own. Man do I have laundry to fold and put away. I know I am not the only wife out there that has done this before. It is a common thing for many of us out there. I am thinking I need to change my title. I am not sure I really like it much anymore. I really try hard not to whine and feel a bit more like I am winning this long battle of deployment.
Oh yeah the kids are on my last nerve but hell we sure did have a good time making them. LOL So I have to keep them. It is getting better I am finding ways that I get a bit of my time and they get to do some fun things. I knew it would work out somewhere. I am feeling better about my house. I have some room in the kids room now and I am beginning to get some room in my own room. There is always something to do with 4 kids that needs picked up or thrown out or something.
I have not really gotten to talk to the hubby much in the last week. I am guessing that we are just missing each other which sucks but it is a way of life. Damn I am sure missing him though. He is such a good man. Cooks cleans takes care of the kids and treats me pretty damn good. If I do say so myself. I think I take him for granted. I have to make sure I tell him how much he means to me every chance I get. He will think I have lost my mind. LOL
So I will get better at the blog thing as soon as I get my house done the way I want to. Who knows maybe after everyone has gone to bed I will get back on and update some more. Yeah I am betting not. I will be ready for bed and all when I get done tonight.

Day 43

Ok so things are starting to take their toll. I am ready for a break from the kids. I am slowly getting things organized in the house. Not that there is a lot of room in here anyway.LOL The 3 bedroom does not even cut it. The days are starting to slow down. I need to pick them up a bit. It is not from a lack of things to do just a lack of time to do them. It is all about hurrying up and waiting for things. I have my goals for this deployment and they are starting to seem a bit possible. The kids and I are staying busy. However is a bit frustrating got to get 2 lines to the hubby today and had all kinds of computer problems. I am hoping I get them taken care of. I am really missing him. I Thinking part of me is starting to feel like I do not show him I love him a enough or something. I am sure he knows I love him though. I have not given him reason to think anything else. He is truly my hero. Well tonight it an early night for me I am off to bed.

Day 42

Ok in response to my comment left. You know I love my family to death. It was wonderful being home for the Holidays but as for a break hell no it was worse then being here. There was always people begin and people always up in the house. I am more under a microscope per say then any other time. Hell most of them were telling me to take care of my kids or giving that look. Breaks what are those I have 4 kids remember. LOL
I am just bummed out today. I missed my man online. It happens I know. Damn internet has been throwing fits. I am guessing it is because of all the wind last night. Maybe I will get to talk to him later today or tomorrow sometime. The kids are I are going to clean and organize today. I better get going.

Day 41

Well I got a wonderful phone call this AM from my hubby it was good hearing his voice. We have not talked on the phone much this time. I do get lucky and hear from him almost everyday when he is doing his Daily reports. That is a plus I guess with the slot he is in at the moment. I do not think that slot will last for long though. That is ok too I guess. He sounds pretty good.
So as for the kids and I. We are hanging in there. I am surly ready for a break. I think I will be checking into the caring Saturday's really soon!! Is it time for R&R yet?? LOL Oh wow I just noticed the days this is going pretty quick. That is a Good thing. Well I will try to update a bit more. Later Gators

Day 36

Well things are going pretty good for this deployment. Except tonight I was scared out of my mind by noise from something downstairs so scared called the MPs. Yeah what a freak I am just found it way odd that my phones were dead. I guess one of my plugs come unplugged outside. You know when he is deployed I am such a chicken. I wish Housing would give us alarms. Yeah right nice dream. I would pay it without a problem. LOL
You know it would be nice to know which FRG group I am suppose to be a part of. If the E7 for the team he is with now comes over then he is going back to his old company if not then he is staying where he is now. You know hurry up and make up your damn mind. I did get to chat with him yesterday AM which was nice. What a way to be woke up a buzz from my one true love.
I am such a lucky woman to have a man that I do. He is a GREAT father and wonderful husband. I miss him soo much and all the help I get from him. Maybe when he gets home this time he can stay put for at least a year. Happy New Year to everyone!!!