Day 134

You know this deployment is not all that bad sure... I do not have him here and it is a bit longer then 6 or 8 months but.... He has internet access in his room and I do get to talk to him almost everyday. There are things I have figured out with this deployment too. Since this is the first one really on my own with the 4 kids by myself. While he was in Korea I had just had the girls and was home for that year for help from my mom to heal from the C-section and help with all 4 kids. I stayed back in GA while he was gone the first time. That was kind of a bite in the ass I did not do so hot but I learned from my lessons and knew not to let the whole thing get me down. When he went to Kosovo I came home and stayed with my parents. I love my family but you know I like being on my own. Granted it would be really nice to be able to go out some and all but I do not do that when he is home why should I do that now. lol Well anyway as to my feelings today on deployment oh yeah it sucks but hell we are almost 1/2 way threw. I do know I need to respect my husband more for how much he helps out and not take him for granted so bad. Anyway I will sign off for now.